My Pigeon

    At some point when I was a small kid I wanted to get a pigeon because I have seen my cousins have many pigeons of different kinds, I have never had one, they were trading and breeding them, so I thought it would be a good hoppy for me to try out. I had no knowledge whatsoever about pigeons, I tried to get some information from my cousin, he taught me a lot and offered to give me a little one to start with, to grow, and take care of. It was not a good experience for me and for the little pigeon; I put it in a small cottage-like place, I started to feed him, first of all, I was feeding so much food, so it might have bad indigestion, I felt like he was not happy, not moving good, maybe because he was heavy full of food, we had a cat in the house and I never thought that she would attack him, but unfortunately, she did and killed him, I was so sad and never thought about getting one again because I realize that pigeons need so much care and types of equipment to have a successful nice group of them.

Stop Complaining and Do it

   We tend to blame someone or something for our own decisions or choices, in fact, we have no one to accuse but ourselves. It is very easy to put the blame on someone or on your situation, or on your bad fortune; if we use these things as an excuse, we will never do anything, we will never get to our dreams, it is never easy for almost everyone to get to the top.

In my case, I always pick my parents for my misfortune and regretful choices, to be honest, they have some percentage but the largest proportion is from my side, I chose to be what I am now, I chose this difficult road to walk on, I chose not to face my problems I chose to flee and not to come back.

Real Life

   My childhood and adolescence were not like other kids, we have been raised in an environment most likely resembles a prison; not to talk to people, not to go anywhere by yourself or with friends,  not to go anyplace without help from anyone else or with companions, not to discuss or give your opinion on any subject even if that issue about you or not to examine or offer your input in any subject regardless of whether that issue about you or not.

So we have been detached from real life and confined from reality, not knowing how people think or behave in many matters and how to solve issues, not knowing how to act in many situations.

One Day when I was in my teen years, one of my friends came to my house inviting me to go with him and some of my other friends for a barbeque and a picnic beside the sea, I had to turn that down because I was sure that my parents would not let me go. 

My Brother and Me

   I have a brother who is two years younger than me, however, we were in every case together, working together, playing together, studying at the same school, mostly our friends are the same, he is substantially more speaker than me, fluent, cheerful, telling jokes, talkative, I ended up having fewer friends than him because people tend to like the person who speaks and amuses them than the one who is most serious and talks less frequently. 

  He is also kinder than me, in the sense of he is more open to forgiving and excusing than me, I tend to forgive but I like to take revenge and deliver retribution silently before forgiveness and complete absolution, not showing that I am angry or irritated, but in fact, I would be very upset and unpleasant with the person who used me or hurts me.